OMG

oh man… she got a new bf…. for someone she noes less den a month…
i love her so much yet she dun love mi at all… den y in e first place?
she gave so many excuse… she onli tink of wad i did n ask n wadever shit..
but did she tink bout her actions? no… wadever she dun like i changed…
in e end still gone… i did not even ask her to change anything for e sake of mi…
but she got a full list of complains for mi… m i really so lousy? i tryin makin it up… but no use… to her other ppl always seems betta… m i really nt nice to her? she say i cheated her… but i did not even go out wif any girl frenz… n yet she keep on dating other guys n exs…. n she say frenz ma… can try to go malaysia somemore… at tat time i should haf realise she didnt even care how i feel… or felt instead… i tink i nv did enuff ba… maybe its juz… retrib*****… maybe it is… farkers always got tis kinda ending 1…
during range i really should haf shot miself… die le betta off… den keep on thinkin all tis shit… or maybe is i dun haf enuff courage, too scared.. no balls… maybe during hand grenade i can try to build up courage… dunno mi parents will sad anot hor? dunno who will visit n burn things for mi hor?? hmm…. tink no one lehz… to hell tat i should go…